the failure one

my life is getting more and more empty....
and my heart is getting numb....
why i keep repeating this same word over and over again....
I'm tired of it..........
I want to breakthrough....but...
I'm weak and tired....i no longer had the courage...
to lift up my finger...to move my body...
god why you tortured me like this.....
my life is a waste... so why I'm here ...wasting all my life doing nothing..
it's pathetic ......i can no longer bear with it...
and now i no longer want to blame anyone else...
because all the fault is me...
because i cannot survive....
because I'm the failure one....

this poem is by Rubi Karia.